Wednesday, 7 January 2015

Task 2c: Reflective Theory


After reading Reader 2 I looked up the definition of ‘Reflection’. These were the two that I felt fitted the best of what I originally thought about reflection.

 

Serious thought or consideration (Oxford Dictionaries)

 

An idea about something, especially one that is written down or expressed (Oxford Dictionaries)

 

Looking at these definitions you get the idea that reflection is an after thought and something to look back on, weather it be about your day, an event, an encounter or a moment either in your professional or personal life. From writing my reflective journal I have realised how much reflection can help as a dancer. Without realising I have been constantly reflecting in my professional life, especially since starting the journal. As a performer you are continuously given feedback and corrections. During class and rehearsals you are given by the teacher or choreographer instant feedback usually correcting as you learn, either in your actual movement or positions or in your overall performance. Once you are performing in a show, you are usually given feedback after the performance from the dance captain, whether it is positive or negative, but all feedback is constructive. Another area I have found very useful to correct yourself is by filming your performance. Every show I have performed in I have filmed sereval times throughout the contract. This enables me to see where I can make improvements myself and to see if I have improved whilst on a contract.

 

After studying Reader 2 it has proved to me even more how important reflection is in order to progress and develop in your professional practice. The key aspects that stood out to me the most were from researchers, John Dewey, David Kolb, Howard Gardner, Donald Schön, and Robert Kottcamp. Firstly looking at Dewey, he was one of the first researchers to look into the idea of reflection. Dewey described ‘reflective thought’ as: ‘ active, persistent and careful consideration of any belief or supposed form of knowledge in the light of the grounds that support it and the further conclusions to which it tends’ (Dewey, 1933). He had the idea that experience was the key to having more knowledge and you would be better equipped in society. From reading through some of Dewey’s concepts I came to the opinion that reflection is a big key in order to improve, develop and experiment. If you are just taught information from books, teachers or online sources whether it be through reading, writing or practical work you are still learning from other sources. With reflection you yourself are looking over what you have gained from something, usually looking at what you have found out, what you thought/ felt about it and then possibly how it could be improved or a different area that could be explored.



Moving on from the idea of reflection, David Kolb came up with the Learning Cycle:

 



He thought there were four different areas in which people started to learn at different points:

-     Concrete Experience

-     Reflective Observation

-     Abstract Conceptualisation

-     Active Experimentation

 

From the example given in Reader 2, I thought about how I learnt to start a blog. Looking at these four stages I realised I came under two categories the most Active Experimentation meaning I used a trail and error process and Reflective Observation looking at other peoples to see what they had done. From analysing how I learnt to start the blog I started to think about how I learn as a performer. You can link the cycle very clearly to the process in which others and I learn new choreography or dance technique. Sometimes you will see an example or be shown (Reflective Observation) or you will try and do it yourself (Active Experimentation) or you will do it yourself and know what it should be (Concrete Experience) or you will figure it out in your head first (Abstract Conceptualisation). I found this very useful and interesting. I had not previously thought about how you start to learn something and the different ways in which each person could.

 

Moving on from Kolbs idea of the Learning Cycle, Howard Gardner (1983) looked into the possible different ways in which people can learn and understand. He called them multiple intelligences. There are eight different areas, Spatial, Verbal-linguistic, Logical-mathematics, Bodily-kinaesthetic, Musical, Interpersonal, Intrapersonal, Naturalistic. I found the idea of multiple intelligences very relevant for the dance world. I have noticed the different ways people find it easiest to learn choreography or technique. A great example of this is learning tap. Tap can be one of the hardest things to learn choreography for, as its not just about the steps, your alignment, the choreography or the style its also about the rhythm, the accents, and light and shade you put into the sound you are making. Looking into the process of teaching tap there are four main areas: demonstrating, speaking, counting, rhythm. Although essentially you need all areas to learn the choreography but the way in which people remember it the most is through these ideas. For example I personally find it easiest when it is demonstrated and someone sings/hums the rhythm, rather than saying the steps or counting, where as others prefer the opposite.

 

I think this concept is very important for teachers as well. If you are able to teach using different types of learning methods then you are a well rounded teacher that would get the most out of their students. As a dancer it is important to be able to learn well in all areas. When working with different choreographers each person has their own teaching style, which you would need to adapt to. Another area in which some dancers struggle with is changing their spacing or order of choreography. A role in performing is often you would have to swing. Being a swing in a show involves learning someone else's role so that if they are unable to go on through injury or illness you are able to take their place. Some performers find this role very difficult. Tharp and Reiter 2006 talk about the idea of muscle memory. If you have been use to your own spacing and choreography it is then engrained in your muscle memory and almost becomes automatic, therefore to then have to change that is quite difficult. Many dancers struggle with this and that is why if you are hired as a swing you are usually paid more, as it requires a higher skill set.

 

Another concept I thought was very relevant was Donald Schön and Robert Kottcamp. Schön (1987) came up with the concept of reflection in-action and reflection on-action. Reflection in-action is where you are reflecting whilst you are doing the activity, so as you go. Reflection on-action is where you reflect after you have done the activity. Robert Kottcamp looked into the concept further. Kottcamp called reflection in-action on-line and reflection on-action off-line. He believed that it is harder is reflect on-line than it is off-line. As dancers we naturally use reflection more on-line as we are corrected as we go by either ourselves or the teacher. Otherwise the process of development and improvement would take much longer, as it is physical and muscle memory takes over. Where as for academics it is natural to look back over something after you have finished the activity, off-line. For performers, although it is so natural to be corrected as you go you forget how youve improved and how you got there. I believe it is also important for performers to reflect off-line as well on-line, to see how they got to the end result and where they could improve from the beginning. For example whilst I was training my teachers would correct my posture when I carried out pirouettes, and said my weight was too far back. I started to correct myself when carrying out a pirouette. Reflecting on-line. However it wasn't until I had reflected off-line that I realised that my posture was not just related to my pirouettes but my posture in everyday life and whilst dancing. I realised that if I corrected my posture all the time it would increase my chances of changing this bad habit for good rather than just when I carry out a pirouette.

 

Looking at my reflective journal from the previous tasks and after reading Reader 2, I had noticed a lot about the way I learn and how different people teach. An area which I found affected me a lot was the environment in which you work in. I had been rehearsing whilst writing my journal. For the first week and a half I had rehearsals by myself, as I came into the show at the last minute. The rest of the cast knew the choreography and so it was just me and the choreographer until the last few days of rehearsals. At first I thought it was great to have one-to-one attention and it would be more beneficial, however I found the learning process incredibly hard without having the rest of the cast there. For obvious reasons, learning the routines was hard without my dance partner as you need to build a connection and get use to each other, but apart from that, I missed not having people to work with. You gain a certain atmosphere and a better understanding of the show when there are other people there to learn with. I found that I picked up the choreography quicker than usual as it was just me learning it, however I did not remember the order of the show or my spacing as well as I normally do. Without having anyone there it is very hard to place where you should be and what the overall dance is supposed to look like. After experiencing this myself I am interested into looking into this area of learning and reflecting with regards to the environment around you. 

 

Overall looking at some of the concepts on reflection, it has really opened my eyes at the ways in which you can improve and develop as a dancer if you just take time to reflect on what you have learnt. Looking at the variety of ways people learn can really help you as a dancer to know your strengths and weaknesses, but also as a teacher. I have recently started teaching however this area has made me see how I can improve as a teacher to get the best out of the students. From my own recent experience of learning I now want to explore this area more of how the environment in which you learn and reflect can have an affect on your development.
 
 
 


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References

 


 

WBS3730 Module 1, Reader 2, BAPP Arts, Middlesex University, page 4

 


 


 

WBS3730 Module 1, Reader 2, BAPP Arts, Middlesex University, pages 5 & 6

 

WBS3730 Module 1, Reader 2, BAPP Arts, Middlesex University, pages 7 & 8

 


Sunday, 14 December 2014

Task 2d Inquiry


Looking at Reflection in relation to my professional practice was very interesting. I noticed quite a few reoccurring themes. This has made me look in detail about what drives me and what my weaknesses are in my profession. At the moment I feel as thought I am just over half way through my professional dancing career, I know that if I had reflected on this as little as a year ago my answers and thoughts would be very different. I have come to realise that your professional life can be strongly driven by your personal life and vice versa. When I first left college I was full of drive determined to get where I wanted, always cared what people thought of me, wouldnt have really consider going away from home on a long contract and thought if you worked hard enough you would get what you wanted. Now however after being in the industry for 3/4 years my thoughts are very different. I am still driven and determined but in a different way. I always thought it was about getting the best job, the one that had a name for itself that most people would have heard of, however now I know it isn't about that. What I thought I would love doing when I first graduated is not actually what I love the most. I used to want to be in music videos and dance on TV. However now I love performing on stage so much more. For me I get a lot more job satisfaction out of that than anything else. I have realised that you have to be good at every part of the industry not necessarily in talent but networking, socialising, working hard, knowing when to stick up for yourself and when to let things go and trying to like everyone that you work with is sometimes impossible but learning how to work together is enough. Where I thought I wouldnt travel with work I now love it and have definitely caught the travel bug. Therefore when I started answering the questions below it surprised me what I first thought of and how much I have changed after only 3 years. Here are my thoughts to the questions below:
 
 
  • What in your daily practice gets you really enthusiastic to find out more about?  

At the moment my daily practice keeps changing regularly. I am currently in rehearsals for a new show. From these rehearsals it has really made me think about different teaching techniques and how to adapt to different styles quickly. I love learning a new style and the different ways you are challenged to learn and the way different people teach. For the last week I have been rehearsing on a one-to-one basis as I am the newest member to the show and the rest of the cast know the choreography already it is just me for now. From this I have realised how hard I find it to learn a show by yourself. At first I thought it would be great as I would have so much attention and would be able to really focus however a lot of the choreography is partner work and interacting with the rest of the cast. Without the atmosphere and rapport you have with your other cast members it is so hard to learn and perform. Even more so with partner work as you can learn the choreography but that means nothing when you cant actually dance it as you should be being lifted. Therefore I am enthusiastic about team work creating and atmosphere together and entertaining people with that energy and power. I also enthusiastic about how much impact a good partnership can make on stage and how you can get so use to someones movements and knowing what they are about to do next.


  •  Who do admire who also works with what makes enthusiastic?
 
I admire one of my fellow cast members and now company manger. He is always enthusiastic and has so much energy. He sees the positive in a situation and is grateful for every moment he gets to perform on stage and work in the industry. I have found that a lot of performers can become complacent and lose sight of why they are doing a job. He works so well in a team and can bring people together, as he understands what it is like to be a cast member and sees both sides to a given situation. His enthusiasm and energy is infectious and a great motivated.


  • What gets you angry or makes you sad?
 
In my working life at the moment what makes me sad is missing people and the constant pressure of making it. Being away from home and having a job where what you're doing constantly changes and isnt stable, is a very hard life to lead. Being in the industry that we are in, we sacrifice and miss out on important things that mean a lot to us. For example telling a friend you wont be able to go to their wedding, missing birthdays, or important milestones in the lives of the people you love the most. One of the hardest relationship to keep is the one with your boyfriend/partner. Constantly having to arrange your schedule around each other, being away from each other and compromising starts to take its toll. This in particular gets harder as you get older and you naturally want a more stable life, especially when other people your age that you are surrounded by are starting to settle down. As a performer, particularly a dancer you have a limited time span to fulfil what you want to achieve, as your body can only withstand the industry for short amount time, compared to a lot of other careers. For women in particular it is a very hard juggling act. If you want children and a successful career it is so difficult to get a good balance. The best way to get through this constant dilemma is knowing you are not the only person that has this problem and finding a balance of what is important to you.  
 

  • Who do you admire who shares your feelings or has found a way to work around the sadness or anger?

A person I have always admired and find very inspiration is Carlos Acosta. I first read his biography No Way Home as research for a project at dance college. Straight away I fell in love with his book and found his story so inspirational. It really changed how I thought about the passion and love you can have for something for example dancing and what a difference it can make to have that much passion for something in your life. Even the title of his book No Way Home already dictates how he feels. Throughout his life he has faced many struggles to get where he is today particularly within his home life. At the start of his career he really struggled being away from his family and belonging somewhere as he had to travel for his dancing. I found the book comforting and inspiring. Although my background and life is completely different to his, it shows that people can get through so much, and that even the people that are top and the best is their profession struggle with the same issues.
 

  • What do you love about what you do?
  • Who do admire who also seems to love this or an example of what you love?

I love the feeling you have on stage when performing, I love how you can entertain people and hopefully get them to enjoy themselves for that moment when they are watching a show and get lost in it. Knowing that you are making someone feel something hopefully usually uplifted or happy depending what show you are doing but will have an effect on the audience in a positive way in which they gained something from watching you perform. Expressing yourself in a different form and someone else understanding how you feel. I love the whole process, of becoming a different character and performer. From the point where you are getting ready, putting on your make-up, and styling your hair, to learning a new style and woking with different people.

An example of what I love is what I am currently doing. I have recently been learning a show set from the 1950s/60s. Since I have started I have looked into what happened in that era, the social norms, how men and women would have behaved, how they were treated and how they used to dress. After just two weeks in of learning the show I already feel as though I have a better understanding of the style. The whole process of this is exactly what I love the most. Working with such talented people and seeing how they have taken to the style, you can learn and develop your ability so much more.    

 
  • What do you feel you don't understand?
  • Who do you admire who does seem to understand it or who has found a way of making not understanding it interesting or beautiful, or has asked the same question as you?

The main thing I will never understand in this industry is how it can be so fickle. There have been so many people I know that I thought would definitely work once they left college, but haven't worked at all. One minute you could be in constant work and the next you could not get any work for months, making it so much harder to make a living out of it. A lot of the time  you could get to the end of an audition but then not be chosen, which obviously happens a lot to people. However the fact that you may not get any feedback to why you were unsuccessful and having to accept the reality that you will never know why they picked the other person over you. I think a big part of getting on in the industry is accepting the fact that you wont know why and use the experience in a positive way.  

Another area which I do not understand is there is a constant question what are you doing next. As a performer you are always thinking about what is next and working towards getting another contract whilst your still doing one so that there isnt a big gap where you are not working. I remember one of the best things a teacher said to me was, Appreciate the job youre doing and remember to enjoy that moment, rather than thinking about what job is next, otherwise you wont realise your success and enjoy what you worked so hard for. At the time I remember not understanding why you wouldnt do this but now I can see it is completely true. I have found that it isnt just people in the industry that do this but also people out side of the industry. The first question people ask is what are you doing at the moment and the what are you doing next. Sometimes you dont know and you have to audition again. But it is almost seen as unacceptable.  that a lot of the time we dont just appreciate our job at that time and are always thinking what is next!.
 

  • How do you decide the appropriate ethical response in a given situation?
  • To what extend are disciplinary responses different to that you might expect more generally in society? For example, what level of physical contact would you deem appropriate (and not) from another professional that you would find unacceptable more generally?
  • Why?

I find this area of appropriate ethical response one of the hardest but also the best part about working with people in this industry. As most of my experience has been in dance contracts touring around different countries, I am going to focus on that area. In a normal workplace you usually just work with your colleagues, sometimes you might go for something to eat or drink or socialise after work together. However on a usual dance contract touring you would have to travel, work, eat, and usually have to share a room with someone, never really having a moment to yourself. You are constantly in each others company making it harder to keep your professional boundaries up all the time, eventually your personal life will come into the equation, therefore changing your relationship with your fellow work colleagues. When you are away from home and you are constantly around the same group of people, you automatically become a lot closer in a shorter amount of time than you normally would. Some people call it living in a bubble. Therefore when it comes to working in a show together most people in the cast know each others personal life. This can make your job easier and the connection you have with people makes a stronger performance on stage or it could make it harder as you all know each others business and it can sometimes get messy.

Another area which I have always found funny is the closeness and how open you have to be in front of people. As a dancer you cannot be shy about being half naked and getting changed in front of people. When there are quick changes during a show you do not have time to be self conscious and have to let your inhibitions go. In an office environment you would not work together half naked and help each other get change, however this is the norm in the dance world. You automatically have to feel more comfortable round each other in order to do this. 

Although at times this area of ethical boundaries can be blurred between the lines and can make your work life harder, it can also be great. You can make friends for life and have a much closer connection with people generally. I have met so many amazing people and shared moments with them that I will never forget. They are the ones that share that moment where you are living your dream. If you are travelling around the world together, you see things that most people dream about seeing. Although you arent with your loved ones who you would normally share those moments with, the closeness that you have from the working environment that a performer works in, makes it easier and a lot more meaningful with those you are with.

Tuesday, 9 December 2014

Task 2b Reflective Writing Journal Writing Experience


I really enjoyed looking at different ways to write my journal. I found that some ways more usual than others. Here are two examples of my journal:

 
 
List Diagram - This is the easiest and most comfortable way for me to write. Although I found that I didn't have much detail about the day but it was good for a quick overview.
  

Day 1:

 
          Woke up and got ready for work: Need to pack bag the night before, wasted time looking for things for my day.
          Travelled to work: Easy journey to work, no train delays.
          Met the person that was taking the rehearsals for the next few days: Felt very nervous as it was the first day of rehearsals and it was just me rehearsing with the Dance Captain. 
          Started learning a new number in the show: Really like the style, however was difficult to learn without my partner.
          Learnt two another numbers in the show: These two numbers were a lot easier as there wasnt any partner so I didn't have to rely on someone else.
          Had Lunch: Got to know the Dance Captain more. 
          Learnt two more numbers in the show: These were the hardest to learn as they had partner work in it, and I will not have my partner to work with until next week, this worries me.
          Short break: We took a short break.
          Learnt the last two numbers in Act One: These two were easier as I didn't have a partner however, the girls dance was harder without having other people around you dancing, as there is a lot of cannons and freestyle. This is a lot easier to do when you have other people dancing with you.
          Recapped everything that I learnt that day: I remembered more than I thought I would, however I still dont feel completely comfortable with the choreography as I haven't got my partner to work with.
          Travelled Home: Easy journey, went through in my head what I learnt that day, happy that I had finished Act One.
          Watched Act Two for the show: Looking forward to learning Act Two tomorrow. Went over the choreography that I had learnt that day.
          Went for a meal with friends: Met up with my friends from home that I hadnt seen for a while.
          Got ready for bed: Packed my bag ready for the next day, to save stress in the morning.
 
 
How I felt about the day

It was great to start learning a new show, and I think I will really enjoy it, however I am still feeling apprehensive about it all as I have realised I do not enjoy learning a show on my own without having the rest of the cast with me, especially without my partner as you cant do the choreography properly without them. It has also made me realise even more that Im the new one in a cast that have already worked together and know the show very well. This is a new experience for me in my career.


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Chart Diagram - I found this format very productive. It was great to see visually how my day had been broken down in time and what I spent the most time on. I thought this was a good way to reflect on what I spend my time doing and how I could improve my schedule. I constantly feel like I do not have enough time in the day to do everything I want to do. I used this method for a few weeks as well as another format of writing a diary to see where I spend my time and how I could improve as each day is different this gave me a better view of a usual schedule rather than using it for one day.

 
 
 

Breakdown of Day

 

          Getting ready for Work: 2 hours

          Travelling to and from work: 3 hours

          Rehearsing: 6 hours - broken down: Recapping 1 hour, learning new material: 3 hours Practice/ cleaning all new material: 2 hours 

          Uni Work/other errands: 4 hours

          Social: 2 hours

          Rest: 6 hours

 

There were two other ways that I found useful. I found the what if? way interesting. I happened to use this format on a day when I had an audition. I had been unsuccessful at the audition but found this task useful. At the end of the day I thought about what it would have been like if I had got the job. It made me realise that I didn't actually want the job and that I was mainly going just because there was an audition and there hadn't been many at the time. From doing this it made me think about what I actually wanted, and what I needed to do in order to get there. This was very productive and I started looking into a different way to network and get into the area I wanted to work in.

 
I also found the format Another View useful. Trying to view your day from a different perspective was really interesting. On the day that I used this format, was the first day of blocking  with everyone from the cast, dancers and singers. Our dance captain came across stressed, unorganised and kept changing what she wanted. Overall the day was difficult and stressful. I decided to look at the day from the perspective of my dance captain. After doing this it made me realise that however difficult and stressful the day was for me, it must have been even harder for her. It made me more understanding and patient. For the rest for the blocking rehearsals I found I was a lot more understanding and was more patient with the process and tried to get other cast members to be more understanding.

 
Looking at the different ways to reflect. It made me realise that most of the formats have a different purpose and helps you to look at things differently, for example if you wanted to breakdown what you spend your time doing and how you could improve it, I would use the chart format, however this wouldn't be as useful if you wanted to look more into how you felt about the day and the emotions that you had gone through.